{"id":3453,"date":"2025-12-07T07:47:46","date_gmt":"2025-12-07T07:47:46","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/humorsidehub.com\/?p=3453"},"modified":"2025-12-07T07:47:48","modified_gmt":"2025-12-07T07:47:48","slug":"lets-address-the-pornography-issue-to-those-who-think-i-jumped-ship-youre-right-i-did-because-we-were-not-yet-married-it-was-not-my-job-to","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/humorsidehub.com\/?p=3453","title":{"rendered":"\u2018Let\u2019s address the pornography issue. To those who think I \u2018jumped ship,\u2019 you\u2019re right \u2013 I did. Because we were not yet married, it was not my job to \u2018fix him.\u2019\u2019"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

In light of the massive upheaval that has arisen since my last series on betrayal trauma \u2013 when the world learned I broke up with my fianc\u00e9 after I found out he had been searching for pornography a week prior to our wedding<\/a> \u2014 I feel the need to make a general overall statement. Mainly because it would take years to respond to the thousands of comments, and some of them I don\u2019t feel are worth responding to anyway.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019ve officially been bashed by the internet for my religion, my personality, my values, my mind, my writing, my experiences, my dreams, and anything else that people could manage to find wrong with me and those articles. Congratulations, you\u2019ve officially covered all of your bases. I suppose most of you who made the rude comments, (if not all of you) feel like they\u2019re deserved, and you completely have a right to your own opinion.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

However, I find it ironic that for a society that is big on #noshame, everyone seems perfectly okay with shaming and harassing innocent people on the internet. It\u2019s okay to have differing opinions than mine. In fact, it\u2019s more than okay. But there\u2019s certain class, civility, and eloquence that anyone can demonstrate when stating their different opinions, which some people showed in their comments. You can absolutely state how you think or feel without brutality. Nobody deserves to be treated in such a way, including myself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I want to take a minute to address the religious aspect of the argument. Most of you have figured out by now that I\u2019m a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I love my religion, and it brings me great joy and happiness. No, the \u2018Mormons\u2019 are not a cult, and just because someone is religious and believes in God does not mean we automatically belong to a cult. It does mean that I believe in a most high God who loves ALL of his children, including my ex-fiance, and every single one of you. It means I value chastity, which means abstinence from sexual relationships before marriage and complete fidelity after marriage. You do not need to agree with my values to respect my values. And just because I have a high-value system does not mean I\u2019m \u2018self-righteous\u2019 or that I believe I\u2019m perfect. Of course, I have my flaws\u2026 but there is a major difference between making mistakes, and sexual promiscuity.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2018I\u2019m THAT girl that spent 6 months with a ring on her finger. That girl that planned an entire wedding, only to find out a week prior it was all a lie.<\/a>\u2019<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u2018Someone I loved had been expertly lying to me for the entire length of our relationship.\u2019<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

One thing I want to point out is that true love does not and cannot exist unless it is governed by God\u2019s law. This includes chastity, fidelity, loyalty, and honesty. Without those things, TRUE love does not exist. Of course, marriage is hard and there\u2019s no perfect marriage. But overall, marriage was created to bring more joy and happiness than pain and heartache. But to those who think I \u2018jumped ship,\u2019 you\u2019re right\u2026 I did. Because when someone in an engagement decides to violate God\u2019s laws, honesty doesn\u2019t exist. And neither does love. At that point, because we were not yet married, it was not my job to \u2018fix him.\u2019 It\u2019s his job to fix himself. That doesn\u2019t mean I can\u2019t offer love and forgiveness. Which I did at the time and still do\u2026 but forgiveness does not equate to sticking around where I can be hurt multiple times over. You don\u2019t reach repentance and change by being coddled every step of the way. Leaving was an act of love because I care more about what happens to him in the next life than I do about having a \u2018picture perfect wedding\u2019 in the here and now. No woman should ever be guilted into marrying anybody.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I also want to state that I think a large majority of people are missing the point of why<\/em> I wrote these articles<\/a>. I was completely aware when I posted these I would get some backlash. But those people that are whipping me with their tongues are not the audience I wrote this series of articles for. I didn\u2019t write them to shame men, women, or porn addicts. I didn\u2019t write them to shame my ex-fianc\u00e9. I didn\u2019t write them to get attention (why on earth would anyone actually want this much attention?).<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u200bThe reason I wrote these articles is because there are hundreds and thousands of women out there (and I\u2019m sure some men too) who have been through similar things. Some of these people that I have met personally have continuously told me they have experienced so much pain from their loved one\u2019s pornography addiction, but they can\u2019t talk about it precisely because of the social backlash I have received from this topic. I write for these women. I write for these women who finally have a voice now. I write for these women so they can see that despite the men or other people in their lives who betray their trust, they still have worth and there is hope that their hearts will be healed.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I also believe it\u2019s quite appalling that anybody invalidates anyone else\u2019s pain. Everybody feels and expresses things on different levels. Nobody would ever laugh at someone who was in a car accident and lost an arm. So why is it okay that we mock other people\u2019s emotional pain? If the shoe was on the other foot and it was YOUR emotional pain caused by someone close to you betraying YOUR trust, it wouldn\u2019t be so funny now would it? I also want to point out that I suffer from a chronic illness called Chronic Lyme Disease. The nature of Lyme disease itself is that it can drill into your nervous system, and therefore it causes a heightening of the senses. This is usually accompanied by deep negative emotion, anxiety, or depression. So when a Lyme patient\u2019s life is thrown a hardball, it is extremely hard to process at first. So to those who think I\u2019m \u2018immature\u2019 and \u2018overly dramatic\u2019\u2026  That\u2019s not exactly a card you can play if you don\u2019t live in my own skin. I simply wrote what I was feeling at the time, and if you read the other two parts you would find the conclusion was that I\u2019m happy with the decision I made, and that I did overcome the pain I was feeling.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Okay, let\u2019s address the pornography issue for a minute here\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

First of all, to those who think I just destroyed my ex-fianc\u00e9\u2019s life\u2026 Let me clarify: We already had over 300 invitations to our wedding sent out. We had to call every single one of those people and tell them what happened to inform them the wedding was off. Pornography addiction does not just affect you. Pornography addiction affects the people around you, and it\u2019s only so long before the truth is going to come out. Because of the nature of my situation, it\u2019s not a secret among our friends and family. It never was. I didn\u2019t write the articles to bash my ex-fiance. And the things I did write simply stated what happened, and how I felt about it. That\u2019s it! I forgive my ex-fianc\u00e9, and I hope the best for him and his life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I recognize that pornography addiction is a massive struggle for some people, and I want to point out here that my heart goes out to anyone who is caught in the grasp of it. I do NOT feel hatred towards the people who struggle from addiction. I feel sad because I know how much it destroys love, family, and happiness. But I don\u2019t feel hatred. If you read the whole post, you would have read that eventually I had to stop seeing myself as the victim in the situation because that\u2019s part of moving on and healing. Similarly, the people who are addicted to porn need to stop seeing themselves as the victim too. Because if you say that a porn addict is a victim, you\u2019re not giving them any hope to overcome the addiction. Clearly, there needs to be MORE HOPE in this world.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Pornography addiction is a very difficult plague. I will never claim it\u2019s not. There are two roads you can take when you find yourself in this place. One road will always lead back to the addiction. And the other road leads to Christ who paid the price for ALL pain. One road leads to shame, isolation, and other sexual addictions, and the other road leads to repentance and change. Christ paid the price for those struggling with pornography. Does it take some stretching and some difficulty to overcome? Of course, it does! But it isn\u2019t impossible. It\u2019s possible with Christ\u2019s enabling power. You don\u2019t have to live life with a serious sexual addiction. There is life without porn addiction, and believe it or not, there can be life AFTER porn addiction depending on how YOU CHOOSE to get help and how YOU CHOOSE to help yourself.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I also want to address the people who claim \u2018it\u2019s just porn.\u2019 There are HUNDREDS of statistics on how harmful pornography is on the brain, relationships, and the world. If you don\u2019t believe me, you can visit fightthenewdrug.org where it outlines and explains what pornography does, and why it\u2019s so harmful. There is nothing natural or healthy about indulging in pornography. To say that \u2018all men look at porn\u2019 is to say that all men care more about self-gratification and sexual desire than they do about their wives, daughters, sons, and the other people they love in their life. I don\u2019t believe that all men are like that\u2026 In fact, I know some incredible men who are not like that, and porn is not a part of their lives, or they\u2019re trying incredibly hard to eliminate it from their lives. Kudos to those men. Kudos to them for valuing greater things in their lives. The reason why pornography is such a massive epidemic in society is because it\u2019s so socially acceptable. There is nothing wrong with hoping for a greater future for our world than one filled with porn, addiction, and adultery.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I want to conclude this post by thanking all the wonderful women and men who have positively reached out to me in the past few days, and I want to offer tremendous love to all the people who have given support and banned together on this issue. Keep on keeping on and stay strong! There is always hope and happiness ahead!\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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